Ugly

I'm very ugly

So, don't try to convince me that

I am a very beautiful person

because at the end of the day

I hate myself in every single way

and I'm not going to lie to myself by saying

there is beauty inside me, that matters

so, rest assured I will remind myself

that I am a worthless, terrible person

and nothing you say will make me believe

I still deserve love

because no matter what

I am not good enough to be loved

and I am in no position to believe that

beauty does exist within me

because whenever I look in the mirror,

I always think

am I as ugly as people say?

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F.A.

 Inner me

"The scariest thing I ever had

to encounter

Wasn't a ghost, or a big scary

monster

It was the reflection

I saw as I looked in the 

mirror

The moment I had to face

All the dark parts

I tried hard to erase

Yet as I looked a bit closely

At the eyes staring back at me

I realized they were still there

Untouched and unfazed

Waiting for the day

To be let out of their cage."

 

F.A.

 

Without you

At evening when the lamp is lit,

All alone, at home I sit.

Night time calls, and to my den,

Of I crawl once again.

Silently I climb the stairs,

Now alone, without her.

I pray for my love, her soul to keep,

In heaven,

Where angels fold their wings and sleep

F.A.

Shadows

Lost in a strange city

With the scent of mystery

Clinging onto her soul-being giddy

She wanders about rhythmically.

With footsteps echoing in the empty valley

Shy, under a veil of eccentric-embroidery

She resembles the amber leaves of fall 

Swirling graciously, she blend in obtrusively

With the clouds of mist and ivory.

A.A.

All i want is you

I love the way you drive

I love the way you fell for my eyes

I love the way you kiss my forehead

I wont let this all to end.

I know we promised each other

That we wont look into future

But i cant resist myself

I want you to be there.

F.A.

If

If tomorrow

I don't wake up

don't waste your energy

don't  waste your tears

don't feel sad for me

don't miss me

you don't need me.

But please

don't forget me.

F.A.

Stability

Men attend women for two reasons, sex and love, but in most cases men do not marry for sex or for love, they marry for stability.
A man can love you and not marry you.
A man can have sex with you for years without marrying you.
But immediately he finds someone who brings stability in his life, he marries her.
A man can have sex with you for years without marrying you.
But immediately he finds someone who brings stability in his life, he marries her.

Men are visionaries when they think about marriage, they do not think about wedding dresses, bridesmaids, anything the woman thinks is fanciful.

They think that this woman can build me a home.

Women are tender, they have the capacity to receive and reproduce.

You give her groceries, she prepares a meal, you give her money, she gives you peace, you give her sperm and she gives you children.

You give it discomfort, it becomes your worst nightmare and most men know it. This is why a man can stay with a woman for years and meet another in a month, then get married.

It's the stability they want.

Sex is a pleasure, love is an affection, RESPECT is stability.

F.A.